Reflection: 1 Year Sober
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As I begin to reflect on two years sober, I was revisiting this Facebook post from when I celebrated one year sober. And, I felt called to share the first reflection here as well. Stay tuned for my year two reflection!
๐ผ๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ช๐จ๐ฉ ๐ก๐๐ ๐ ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฉ, ๐โ๐ข ๐ ๐ฎ๐๐๐ง ๐จ๐ค๐๐๐งโฆ
This journey began with a bit of an awakening to the potential life had and how alcohol was hindering me from living life to the fullest. While it feels like it was something that "just happened", the deeper I dive into all this hippie-dippy shit, I know it was the Universe working in all her sneaky ways to lead me down the right life path to heal my soul and grow as a human.
Iโm one to undermine my efforts with responses like โ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฉ, ๐ช๐ตโ๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฃ๐ช๐จ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ข ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญโ or โ๐ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฏ๐ฐ ๐ช๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ข ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถโ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ข๐ญ๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ข๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ตโ. But today gets to be different, I get to continue to grow. Today Iโm wearing my heart on my sleeve, being vulnerable, and sharing a piece of my story. With that saidโฆ
๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ผ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ผ๐๐๐โ ๐ฟ๐๐ผ๐
The past year hasnโt been all rainbows and butterflies and Iโd be lying if I said it was easy. Removing alcohol meant I had to face every challenging moment and every long day without numbing myself from the messy and dark emotions. But you know what comes when you actually feel? Healing and the opportunity to feel all the joyful moments to a deeper extent.
In all the moments of doubt and asking myself โ๐ธ๐ฉ๐บ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ง**๐ฌ ๐ข๐ฎ ๐ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด?โ it all came down to one simple answerโmy life has changed. Life has become fuller, more enjoyable, with deeper connections and beautiful memories. Iโm able to lead a life more from my heart and I have more of a choice in showing up every single day, for myself and others, as the woman I want to be.
I had no idea a year ago Iโd sign a contract with the Universe, committing to making myself my number one priority. And I can honestly say I am so glad I did because every lesson learned and every challenge overcome, has been greater than any sip of alcohol or sensation of intoxication.
๐ ๐ผ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ฟ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
What brings the most pride is that I took a leap of faith, trusted the Universe, allowed myself the chance to heal so many parts of myself, and really start to step into the woman who I truly am. I canโt wait to see what comes next!
And a special shout out to all the homies who have supported and encouraged me during this journey. You all are the true gift and I couldnโt have done it without such a supportive, loving tribe.